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I´ll have to let it go

I have lost so many
warmhearted souls
in my life
I´m still clinging to the memory of them
I`ll have to let them go

My grand grandmother
who save me
through my first year
I`ll have to let her go

My uncle Per, my shield
against my fear
a fear to be crushed totally
by an evil force
in my youth
I`ll have to let him go

My psychoterapeut, a warmhearted lady
who protected me against my self
when I have lost every hope
for living a free and entirely life
I`ll have to let her go

I thank you pretty souls
for saving my life
but now I have to managing to go my own way
through the deepest dark
through my deepest fear
to catch my force
to fly up in the sky
and meet the light
but then I`ll have to let it go

Again and again I have to meet
my deepest fear and shame
and sometime I`ll get lost
in my inner labyrinth dark
I have to meet my own
ignorance and pride
anger, jealousy and attachment
thinking I`m the only one in the world
with these dark emotions

But I have promise myself
to never forget
to through it out
to the shamanic zone
because I have learned
so many times
lost in my own dark
it`s so many warmhearted people out there
with healing force
they have so many times
melted away darkness into light
send it back
with a magical tiny arrow
hit me hard and
open my heart
so I could feel the love for them all
silly little me
sometimes totally lost in love
with some shamanic zone avatars

But I still have a long and hard way ahead
and I trust with your healing force
I`ll sooner or later
get the courage to let my fear go
cut through layer after layer
of my own delusions
and just for a moment
be able to travel
into the purest light

with love
shri 

 

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Thank you Shri

I appreciate your gratitude.

You are a good spirited woman.

I`ll have to let you go,into the sun.

Thank you for your warmhearted words,
couragious woman.

Sometimes we have to let the safe things go, even though it feels scarey.
I`m thankful shri, for your poem and to the sone for the magic good people who "lives" in here 

Thank you warmhearted souls!
Today, marvelous things have coming into my life.
I have met some buddhists, to of them lamas.
Few hours ago I was invited to a dzogchen retreat,
starting tomorrow.
Now I`m floating into silent happiness.
with love shri